Where to begin? Its been an entire year since I posted last! I had so many things going on this time last year, I felt like I had no direction. Now I want to SHOUT FOR JOY, cause for once in my life I see my next 3-5 years, I see further than that actually. I have direction!
The Decision
It came on rather suddenly. When I was home in Ohio I was job hunting, working for a disabled woman 20 hours a week, and spending 75% of my time jealous of everyone else s life! I was mad frustrated and confused. One thing I knew for sure was that I needed to keep my Heavenly Father apart of my life, Salt Lake was hard at times and those times came because I didn't have Heavenly Father apart of them. I'm not even sure how it came up but all of a sudden I remember thinking, "I was always happy in London. Why am I living here?" I knew I could easily get a job in London and my Omi and Opi were thrilled to hear I wanted to move closer! So in September I packed all that I could fit into 2 suitcases, sold everything else and moved to London!
The Hump
Things weren't easy. When you move someplace and have all these high hopes they usually aren't. I still had problems. I loved spending time with my family, but I missed my "grown up" life I had in utah. Living in a family again was a bit difficult for me to get used to. They always like to know where I am, and where I am filling my time. It was nice though, knowing I could come home and they were interested to know whats going on in my life. Work turned out to be no picnic. The place I had always put up, turned out to be corrupt and unfulfilling. I thought having a boyfriend would help so I started dating one of the chefs, bad idea. He made me very unhappy, I spent 95% of the time either crying or really angry with him and life. Saying all this, what kept me going? Why didnt I turn around and go home?
My Commitment!
When I left Ohio I told myself "Give it 2 years, if you don't want to be there after 2 years, make a new direction!" So I took every day with that in mind. Guess what during that hump period I could still see all the positives, and there were many!
I had a wonderful Calling. Stake YSA Dance Committee Chair
My testimony was strong.
I had some incredible friends.
Every day was an adventure.
London has, and always will, made me happy!
Direction Realised
The moment I got the guts to dump Nic, life's joys increased! Within that week Heavenly Father seemed to say "I want you to be happy, and I was always guiding you towards supreme happiness!"
4 Feb 2013 I met Jared.
I get emotional still. Jared came into my life and things changed. I look back on the past 4.5 months and see all the happiness and love he has brought into my life.
We met at FHE. We spent the week hanging out together. Started dating on Valentines day. Ever since then things have been great. With 100% confidence I can say Heavenly Father has been leading me all this time to find Jared Alexander Joseph Faulkner. He is my match.
New Path
Starting Monday I have another new direction. No more Old Brewery. I have changed employers and now I'll be working full time as a nanny for the Elden family. The children Mae (age3) and Elsa (18months) are darlings! I am looking forward to it!
Moral of the story....
You will go through tough times, and good times but all the time if you keep Heavenly Father first it will be his path he's guiding you on which in the long run will be JOYFUL times!
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